I've probably got 80 of these "I'm back" posts but hey, I really miss this community. A lot has happened since I've left and I feel the need to share with you guys what all has happened.
My parents told me back in October that they have decided on a divorce (well it's pretty one-sided but you know). Yay. So my mom has been looking for a new house while my dad has been slowly fixing up the house we live in now. He also moved in with his sister so I've had to see family a lot more recently which has been taking up a lot of my time. It's been a really rough time emotionally for my mom and I and I can't imagine how she's feeling, I just now I have to keep pushing through everything because it will make me stronger.
About two months ago I was diagnosed with Depression and put on some medication. And it's definitely been working, I feel a difference. I lost the love for a lot of things I used to be passionate about, including art. Even posting those pieces a while ago I was disinterested and distant and just not happy. I've been doing a bit more sketching lately and I'm trying to rediscover myself as an artist and even as a person overall. That's part of the reason why I'm back here, honestly. I joined this website with a love and passion for all art forms, and with a desire to continue to better myself and grow as a designer and individual. I'm hoping to reconnect with my audience (you guys) and try to rediscover why I started doing this in the first place.
For anyone interested in my colorguard life, I spun this winterguard season with Juxtaposition, where we placed 5th in the Independent Open class. You can watch our finals run here
if you're interested at all! They've been helping me through all of my problems so much lately and these guys and gals have been my rock. I cannot begin to say how much I love them. They welcomed me with open arms and I have never felt more part of a group before. Juxta, my pandas, I love you guys!
Also, I discovered I may not only be heteromantic. There's this one girl who I've been crushing on since February, and we talk all the time. Unfortunately, the same week I realized that I really liked her is when she got together with her current girlfriend. So... But I'm glad to still have her friendship and I think she's probably up in my "four quarters" or my four best friends. I wonder what the future holds for me with this new information.
So, that's life. I can't make any promises about what the future holds for me but I know the road to this recovery is going to be long, hard, and full of challenges. I just have to keep my head up. I'll get there.